I don't want solidarity if it means holding hands with you

Eat a dick, then grow up

Stand there till your sober - Bomb the Music Industry!

Brown paper bags metal cans.
Sixty degrees fahrenheit.
We can't see the stars tonight
‘cause apartments generate ambient light
And I'm sorry that we're not already drunk.

Hours later we're getting there
Meters away from the shore
My forty of Corona is just
drops away from being kicked
And I don't know what I'm gonna be tomorrow.

When you stayed overnight making out with a stranger
in the bottom of a boat that belonged to a stranger
and you came home at six in the morning
after being caught ass naked by the dude who threw the party
I thought that we'd never grow up.
I thought that we'd never grow up.

Now all my friends rise at eight.
They go to sleep before midnight.
And I just wanna drink 'til three
Embarrassing myself publicly.
And you all used to be just like me
You fuckers used to be just like me.

So now I sit and stew alone.
Everyone's already sleeping.
Everybody's moved away
and can pay their bills on time.
No one else is making a hundred and ten bucks for twenty hours.
God I hate this fucking place.
God I hate what happened to me.
You promised we'd stay best of friends.
But we can't 'cause I just can't grow up.

And it kills me. Yeah it kills me
that I don’t know what I can do.
I can’t breathe correctly and
I can’t sleep or anything and
I can’t think of anything I can’t think of anything.

Now every night is miserable.
So sad I can't even get drunk.
So let's go out just one last time.
Let's finish off a box of wine.
Do shots of yukon jack and lime.
Can we drink 'til I fucking die?

I'll make you party at my funeral
'Cause mourning is for suckers.
I'll rent a ferris wheel and
cotton candy machine and have open bar
with all the Pabst that you can drink
the PA blasting my Clash records.
You'll finally know that life's okay
Even when bad things happen.

So just one more beer, then grow up.
So just one more beer, then grow up.
So just one more beer.
Go to work.
Pay your bills.
Eat a dick.
One more beer, THEN grow up.

Your children are pirates (you should hope)

They are tired of paying for things they don't neeed.  They are tired of being taken advantage of but told they can't use their own resources to take that advantage.  They aren't listening anymore, at least you should hope.  You should hope your child is going to try and do something differently.  You should pray every night that your kid is out there doing things that are crazy.  You should cry tears of joy for when they stand up for who they are, when they stick their chins up in pride.

I don't want to march in the street.  I don't want to work with in the system to change things.  I don't want to fight the system from outside it.  I want to be autonomous.  I want to run my business, be my own boss, have people who work for me, with similar ideals and morals.  I want to retire to the woods and live by myself.

Don't ever feel entitled to anything, not life, not liberty, not happiness.  What right do you have to any of those things over the next person.  Entitlement is the same as hopelessness.

What's in a name?

Panting and sweaty Tim collapsed on top of her with an long satisfied sigh.  She smiled to herself, it had been ages sense she had felt like she was actually pleasing someone.  He stayed on top of her, the both of them naked, soaked and warm, feeling the stale air being moved by the turning overhead fan.  He didn't move for another moment, then without a word, he stood up and walked into the bathroom.  She still didn't move, remembering how he felt pressed into her, she stared at the cracked wallpaper surrounding her.  Lit by the ancient bulb, the whole room seemed to glow yellow, she looked intently at everything the 20 dollar hotel room offered her.  When he walked out of the bathroom, he was fully dressed again, making her aware, only then, of her own nudity.  With an embarrassed smile she looked around for her own clothes.

"Good morning, that certainly was a way to start the day."

His eyes met hers through his black rimmed glasses before becoming fixated on the floor.  Gosh he was unbearably cute.

"um, yeah... that certainly was" he half mumbled.  "I guess we should kind of get going if you want to make it to Johnson City  by tonight."

Again, she smiled at him, her only acknowledgment as she closed the bathroom door behind her.  Turning the plastic knobs to the shower, warm water spat out before become a solid stream.  The rushing noise of the water calmed her as she stepped into the tub.  She ran her thoughts over everything that had happened over the past day.  Time stood still as she became victim to her memories, replaying each event with the sound of running water in the background.

She had left Fairview early, intending to thumb to Johnson City where her sister lived.  Times were tough for everyone and she had lost her job some months ago, evicted and without a car she just started walking.  It was early evening by the time Tim pulled over, she approached cautiously at first, but after a glance into his clear blue eyes she knew he was honest.  His whole demeanor was timid, as if he was afraid to not pull over and offer her a ride.

His eyes met hers through his black rimmed glasses before becoming fixated on the floor.  Gosh he was unbearabely cute.

Something about her memory felt wrong to her, like it wasn't really right.  Her mind quickening, she retraced their conversation during the drive.  How he mentioned he was driving to Savannah, before even asking where she was headed.  She recalled how perfect it had seemed, meeting a cute nice gentleman who just happened to be heading where she needed to go.  He had listened to her whole story, patiently and caring.  After dinner when she made her advances, his eyes looked so innocent, almost afraid.

His eyes met hers through his black rimmed glasses before becoming fixated on the floor. 

That feeling nagged at her again, like waking up and having misplaced something.  The rushing noise of water, deafened her.  She never even heard the door creak as he opened it.  With her mind racing, determined to find the error, she never even noticed him standing there.  She did notice when he reached into the shower and grabbed her by her hair.  She couldn't even let out a scream before the knife had sliced into her throat.  Time stood still again as she slid down into the tub, falling under the beating water.

His eyes met hers through his black rimmed glasses.  He didn't wear glasses.  She never even saw a case.

Back outside Tim opened up the trunk to his car and slide out a brief case.  Taking the dark framed glasses and carefully, flawlessly, placed them into their spot, beside the horn rimmed glasses and the small silver rimmed glasses.  Sitting back into the driver sit, he turned the key and tried to remember her name.  Oh well, he could never remember their name.

Filthy Holes

He smiles to himself and hums a tune to a song no one knows.  He tends to his garden in the middle of the surrounding asphalt and cement.  He quickens his pace, as he sees the sun start to drop behind the looming giants of the past.  Spires of steel and glass, long forgotten and left uncared for, he thinks about that sinful age, when man played god, and made suns of their own.  He is oblivious to how true that thought is.  Pulling the last of the weeds, he looks over his garden, proud of the crop he knows it will yield.  He wipes the the rich dark soil from his hands, the smell of it overwhelms his senses for a moment.  He stops still and lifts his head as he hears a voice call out his name from somewhere behind him, he smiles as she comes down the steps.

She has light brown hair, the kind that reminds you of coffee after two creamers.  A complete contrast to the black soot on her cheeks and brow from cleaning out the house.  Her smile lights up his face, she opens one of her hands to show him two crisp cigarettes she'd just finished rolling.  With his hand in hers they started their slow walk.  Though they had only been in their new home for a dozen days they had gone walking every night, always sure to head in a different direction or make an unfamiliar turn.  Tonight, with the last hour of light waning, the path they walked turned from cracked asphalt to gravel.  Each step a crunching shift of tiny dirty pebbles, dust lifting up to resettle over their beaten shoes.  As they came upon a crumpled building, he stopped, so did she.  He stared at the caved in rubble and mounds of gravel and he was reminded of home.

They had met there, home that is, back in a land that seemed surrounded by nothing but rocks and gravel and hills.  Their parents, like everyone else there, struggled to grow what they could, to raise their families.  He was the only child and his mother had passed giving birth, his father was a strong man, and he always made sure that there was food.  When cool months and wild dogs came from the north he was taught how to shoot and to be fearless.  Her family was the opposite, she had two sisters and two brothers, as well as both parents.  Their home was filled with books and all of them were taught how to write and read.  They didn't even own a gun, much less learn how to shoot one.

As the last visible tip of the sun drops out of sight, he looks over at her, the burning joint illuminating her face.  He is instantly reminded of how beautiful she is, of how he felt when he first met her, among  those mounds of filthy gravel.

This is a Link to something I find very spectacular that a very particular friend of mine sent to me.  Particular is a good word for the this particular friend, a synonym for particular is meticulous, or anal retentive.  A particular definition for particular is fine in taste.  Both of those are very good adjectives in my particular friend, though I am sure she will disagree.

Cheap Wine and Half-assed Cigars

I love run down bars, I love the smell of the backside of a race track.  I stepped off the train one morning, with only city lights to guide me and it had just rained.  This particular station was old and composed mostly of timber, that wonderful damp living smell eased me into a nostalgia.  I remembered that smell of the old grandstand at the Del Mar horse track, I remembered that smell the first time I tried whiskey.  It burned and soothed my throat at the same time, rain drizzled down outside of that old barn as the smell of empty dirt stalls went unnoticed.  Now, so far away from them, there is no more pleasent nor foriegn scent than that of something worked and honest.

 "Get down close to it. You can feel it travel down the strangs, come through your head and down to your soul where you live. You can feel it. Let it vib-a-rate."